I Miss Performing

I got music…I’m ready to explode
Lyrics…in my mind…like a heavy load
I can't hold…back…what’s in me…
A song….bout drop…at the beat…
Do you feel me
It’s like verbs…bringing action…to words…
Do you hear me
I got a…. song… to sing…
I got a… poem… to pen….
I got a…. word…to bring
I gotta…break loose….
Spit a little bit of fire…mixed with… truth
Let …a bit of this…pinned up…soul …loose
Before I… backfire….
Blockage causing…. a riot… in my head…for this writer
It’s been days…weeks…and months….
Since I’ve been this pumped
Making paper…..like the ground…I got trash….to dump
My vocals…….stuck……in my throat…I got ….a lump….
Tears in my eyes….forming…
I miss a mic…in my hand…
I miss....performing....

If the shoe fits..........

This is a sure sign that I need to take a break from the world and get my house and my temple in order! Typically, I come home from work around bedtime and I’m worn out so I kick my shoes off at the door. The next morning before the sun even rises, I’m back out the door …and the cycle repeats itself day in and day out! I’m off Saturday and I will not be bothered with the outside world. I am staying in the house ALL DAY…so I can clean up, study for my final, and rejuvenate my mind, body, and soul!!!!

p.s. If you see me outside on Saturday, I better have on house-shoes! Well, maybe not but the point is I better not be outside !!!

Lions and Tigers and Bears!!!

My girl Jazmine Sullivan sings of not being scared of lions, tigers, and bears but being scared of love…..Listening to that song for the 100th time made me realize that I have some fears of my own. I had to admit that one of my fears is love. Don’t get me wrong, I desire love and I know that love is on it’s way, but I am so guilty of lacing up my shoes and running from love as if it were a lion, tiger, or bear chasing after me.

As I have grown in my relationship with God and my faith in him, I have grown to be open to love. I am learning that if I truly trust God with all of my heart and lean not on my own understanding, my heart is protected by God regardless of the hurt, disappointment, and pain that may come with love. I have come to understand that even when love hurts me, it is building me.

I’ve admitted that love is one of my fears and I’ll admit two more so that they can be acknowledged and prayed over, because there is no fear in Christ Jesus: Never having children is a fear and not living to my full potential is a fear. Do you have any fears?

I had a million thoughts #17

Sometimes you have to let something go
in order to hold on to what... IS important!!!!

Battlefield of the mind: My Confession

I mentioned a while back that I was beginning to become tempted by my past. Since that last letter the “tempter” has come and taken residency in my mind, making it a battlefield in which my flesh and spirit are at constant war. At times I have felt defeated by the enemy as I would daydream thoughts that were by no means pleasing to our Father in heaven. My thoughts drifted to memories and then memories converted into words and those words led to weakness. Although my state of fragility did not cause me to act, I have sinned in my thoughts alone. Therefore, I have repented to God, sought out the prayer warriors to help me fight this battle, and I openly confess to you that I am in warfare.

During our spiritual journey, we have come to learn that temptation comes in many ways. We as humans can be tempted by food, men, women, drugs, alcohol, money, and material things just to name a few. The enemy is very crafty and in his attempts to kill, steal, and destroy us, he combats strategically and unfairly. His aim is to win our souls back and get the victory that in our lives.

After prayer, repentance, and more prayer, I was led to the 4th chapter of the book of Matthew, in which Jesus was led by the Spirit to the desert to be tempted by the devil. It clearly illustrated Satan’s attempts to tempt our Lord. However, the part that stood out the most for me was how Jesus used the power of words to send Satan back to the pit of hell. Jesus said to him, “Away from me Satan! For it is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.’” (Matthew 4:10). Reading that scripture helped me understand that temptation shall come but victory is mine if I choose to use the power of words but must importantly THE WORD.

Family, when we are under spiritual attack, which we will experience from time to time. Remember to come to the battle with your sword, which is the word. Family, remember that you have the power to win the battle by telling the devil to flee and putting him back under your feet. We have choices in this life, so will we choose to worship and serve Satan or God. Perhaps, a few years ago I would have taken the easy route and lived in my flesh, but I’ve come too far to go back now…..I choose to worship the Lord our God, and serve him and him only…..so away from me Satan!

Happy New Year...Blessings for You

As we eagerly begin a new year, I’d like to take the time to encourage us to willingly live in obedience to God in 2009. Let us walk into each day with a spirit of tenacity, choosing
to grow in Christ through faith on a daily basis. Let us seek God’s word and His will for our lives, with hunger, thirsting for the streams of living waters to flow through us every moment that we breathe. Let us strive to gain Godly wisdom and guidance through consistent communication and fellowship with our Lord. Let us move forward in faith as we step in love and take strides toward forgiveness each day of this blessed year.

Family, I pray that we will grow spiritually in leaps and bounds in 2009. I pray that God will close doors that hinder our growth and open those that will develop our potential. I pray that He will cover us with His blood and protect us with His love from the top of our heads to the bottom of our feet. I pray that He will enlarge our territories and provide avenues for us to be of Godly influence to the lost. I pray that He will give us the desires of our hearts. I pray that He will give us clear vision, wisdom, and discernment in all areas of our lives. I pray that He will bless our seeds and bless the wombs of those who have yet to have seeds implanted. I pray goodness and health. I pray prosperity not just as it relates to wealth, but in all areas of our lives. I pray peace, joy, and love in the name of Jesus I pray. Amen!

As I close this letter, I’d like to say that, “A bird can never be free inside of a cage that is locked!” Therefore, unlock your full potential through obedience to God and open your heart to receive the abundant blessings that God has in store for you in 2009!

“I will bless them and the places surrounding my hill.
I will send down showers in season; there will be showers of blessing. (Ezekiel 34:26)